You don’t want to reveal your process unless your archetype is teacher and you don’t want the role of teacher unless you are a modern guru or how to expert. Said myself.

Many want to learn to be the best in the world and if you are a teacher or if you can convince that faction of the public you are a teacher even if you aren’t or aren’t a good one, then you will attract followers and devotees. If you are an artist, then you are selling an end product to the public, whether it be comedic induced laughs or music induced emotions or story induced excitement and you are not a teacher unless incidentally the end user learns something as a result of your artistic expression.

In a way teaching is a pyramid scheme and conversely artistry is of intrinsic value. I am often gravitated towards teaching, not directly in an academic or tutorial sense, but in a how-to guru YouTube/author sense, like anyone from Napoleon Hill to Tim Ferriss, but then I feel it is less noble than artistry, and it is only for the money. Many obviously obtain true joy from teaching and it gives them intrinsic value, but the ultimate exchange is that the learner hopes to gain something to better themselves so the transaction is inherently pyramidal in nature.

And this brings me back to my process. If this blog post is just me explaining this, I am revealing my process, which I don’t like to reveal, so now I feel vulnerable. Possibly I am attempting to teach something. If this blog post is a piece of artistry or entertainment then possibly I have committed a falsehood and this post is a comical distraction, the joke being that I am concerned about any of this when it is simply a morsel of divertissement at the end of a long day of doing something, towards some end, that I will not reveal, until it is complete.

Aaron Indirectly

10-1-2017

Been struggling here, I gotta cash in on some of this elusive white privilege everyone keeps ranting about. I googled it all day couldn’t find any places that had any. Even went to two banks and they didn’t have any for me. Is it even real? Is it a hoax? If anyone knows how I can get some please inbox me with details and I will be very grateful.

Aaron Hopeful
8-15-2017

The reason I don’t blog consistently is because I am not branded. By that I mean I am not a cow who has had a red hot iron rammed onto my ass so people know what ranch I belong to. Also because what is the point of blogging if you have no focus. I don’t have a specific product. I’m not like the guy who always wears turtlenecks and invents new types of cellphones that change the way we use technology. I’m not like the guy who becomes president at age 70 by accident and makes a mockery out of 250 years of the functioning of an entire major nation. I’m not even like the guy who gets 100 likes on his Facebook profile picture because he just changed it and everyone thinks he’s alright. I’m not branded, I’m not relatable. You don’t get me. You won’t even read this post. You didn’t follow me back on Instagram. I’m not an academic who’s goal is to study what others have done and figure out the patterns in society and humanity, and I’m not a guru offering ways to improve your life so you should subscribe to my newsletter and get this discounted offer now this week only at 40% off before the price goes up. All I am is a guy who tries to figure out why people aren’t interested in him by writing songs (which I haven’t released in a long time), telling jokes, acting as characters, and doing a bunch of other random things that don’t add up to a specific brand and create cognitive dissonance. I shouldn’t even have a blog but I won’t delete this. But since you didn’t read it, you won’t know that anyway. This post is not branded and it is also not pointful, however maybe not totally pointless. At some point in life I will point out something pointy and everybody will get my point. It may be a red hot iron point that brands the world’s ass.

Aaron Hot Poker

Aug 2-2017

It’s so simple. The secret to meditation is staring. Don’t imagine anything, don’t empty your mind, don’t focus on your breath, you don’t have to do those things. I mean, you can do those things, if they work, great, you go; there are many methods and I don’t have any formal training in meditation, I am totally self taught to myself by myself for myself; but staring is an easy way into the game if you are having trouble.

Simply close your eyes in whatever comfortable position for meditation sitting you choose, I got the zafu zabuton combo and I do the lotus cause I’m sly like that, but sitting in a chair is fine. I think it’s pretty important to get it good and dark, because you are about to watch a movie and you need the lights turned off to get a good bright picture.

Once your eyes are closed, you can still use them to see things! I am not talking about imagination or visualization. Look at your eyelids. Use your actual eyes. Stare into your eyelids. Watch what you see. This will stop you from from imagining a bunch of random stuff (the initiate’s problem in meditation – immediately obvious and massively overpowering if you’ve ever tried it even once) and get you really connected to the present moment. Now since you are literally watching the movie inside your eyelids you don’t have to divide your consciousness and inadvertently imagine a billion things and thus cannon launch into frustrating monkey mind games.

What you should see is various patterns of blackness, specks, spots, points of light, possible geometric patterns, swirls and so on. This is the first stage to clear controlled focus. If you keep it going gear shifts start happening in your mind and your visual field. Eventually you can get to hypnagogic states just from this but that’s a different lesson son gun.

Happy sequels.

Eye Movie Aaron

6/27/2017

So my friend was texting me like omg my comedian bailed last minute come and do a comedy show at my real estate open house in a swanky Manhattan pad and I was like omg I am so busy but I’ll do this for you, and she was like get here by 5 and I was like there’s no way it’s already 415 and I have to shower and eat first, and now you know I don’t shower until the middle of the afternoon, and she was like ok get here by 530, so I was like OK, I’m rushing, then I saw a guy in the subway turnstyle coming out as I was going in and we did the back and forth dance like 3 times like which one are you going through and which one am I going through, then he went through one and I laughed then I slammed into the other one because I forgot I was going in and didn’t swipe then he laughed at me bent over the turnstyle bar like an idiot swiping my card over and over 17 times with the readout saying too fast swipe again too fast swipe again too fast swipe (14 more times), then I got on the train, then then I got there and the door man was all frowny like there’s no real estate showing today and I was like wtf I rushed to get here, then I texted my friend and she was like dude it’s tomorrow, and I was like dude why didn’t you tell me that and she was like dude I did and I was like dude I still don’t see it in my texts and then I was like well f, I already went to Manhattan let me see if I can do a comedy show, and I went down to the Pear and then the Lantern, and they were like maybe maybe not wait around and see and I was like damn I can’t wait around all night and see I got businesses to run and blogs to write and then I saw F Murray Abraham and Dave Attell and John Malkovich walking around town, all at different times, not together dumbdumb, and then I went to Trader Joes and got groceries and now I’m home and the reason I am giving this blog post as a lesson in how to not write a delirious gigantormonius run on sentence is because the whole day it was 100 degrees outside and my brain was trying to be not heated. And I also watched the newest episode of Better Call Saul.

6/13/2017

I was going to make this valuable to a reader, I was going to make this blog something one could read and learn something from, as that is presumably the reason one would read a blog, or possibly one would read it for entertainment value. All I am doing is testing online marketing models and planning future writing and performing and branding endeavors. That’s not helpful to a reader. Particularly because I don’t want to discuss the specifics until things are in place and open. I am enjoying the margaritas however. Well I was yesterday. Strawberry, Jalapeño, and Classic, all frozen. And June is a great month. The allergens of May have blown away and the days are long and smiley. I will attempt to make these posts less florid and whimsical and more practical and grounded. Or maybe that is a bad idea. At the moment I am not the king of an internationally successful brand or enterprise and possibly when one is working on foundations, there is not a lot of excitement to post about. I didn’t win a mechanical bull competition last night at Victoria’s Secret model party in a skyscraper lounge in Manhattan, and I didn’t just get off a private jet to seal an international trade deal with an industrial mogul. Focus push chunk mud slug grudge and rinse.

6/1/2017

I’m doing it. I’m writing, I’m practicing, I’m performing, I’m selling. I reopened this blog. Helloze. Welcomze. Apologies if my earlier posts seem offensive in some ways as I have gone through some spiritual humanizing as of late (but no human spiralizing) and I only express positive vibes and warmth and openness and gratitude to everyone. I could delete the old posts. But I won’t at the moment.

The comedy show at Austins was good last night. It was an interesting experience speaking to two guys backs. I told jokes to their backs, I asked their backs questions and I posted a picture on Instagram of my interactions with their backs. I was especially glad to reconnect with my comedy friends Ron Prendimano & Victor Torres & Comedy Pete & Tracey Carnazzo & Liz Glazer & meet some new rad kids too.

Most of my comedy is too hard for people to understand, and therefore it needs to be improved. I take full responsibility, I am the one hundred percentageist at faultor. This is an ongoing climb of several Everests, of course on a planet with nitrogen for oxygen and no climbing gear. But I’m almost there, bear.

Furtherly, you can attempt to correct my vocabularly individualistic grammarism but you will fail, and also, add me on Snapchat, follow me on Instagram as I am reactivating my picturesque existence there, and follow me on twitter @aaronpeta and if you are a casting director or other entertainment industry human, go ahead and follow @aaronpetanews for my latest gigs, shows, press releases, and industry related kerfuffles.

Killerbroccoli is on hold for the moment due to severals others projects underways howevers I am shooting for a Summer or more realistically Fall 2017 season of shirts there. The pilot script is also in the hammock as the opening of a couple of other businesses (more on those in several spins of the Earth on its axis) has flung me into the labor swamp. I am hanging my shingle as a voice actor at aaronpeta.com/voice so if you need voice over work you can listen to my commercial demo there and then contact me for professional services. I promise, me, that I will have a character and animation demo up soon, me.

I have not eaten cheese in quite some time however I am upping my carbs for the summer months likely through frozen margaritas and tostones and am unlikely to be in ketosis anytime soon.

Redesigning Aaron

5/29/2017

 

When writing a pilot script there are so many things to develop, consider, and bring into alignment. You have to really build the main characters to a three dimensional reality before actually knowing who they are and if you don’t have the actors picked, before knowing who is going to become them.

You have to create a situation or a setup in the characters lives right at the beginning that grabs the viewer and makes him compelled to watch moment after moment.

Then, in an ideal pilot script, you have to have the situation develop so that things have changed in the lives of the characters so they are now planted in a new situation which serves as the setup for the series.

I have noticed several things by studying pilots from several sitcoms. Almost always the main character has something magnetic and something detracting, a yin and a yang. Often though not always the main character causes trouble for others and this helps drive the plot. Often he has a driving force that he is trying to achieve. Almost always there is a singular main event, accompanied by possible subplots, which is the foundation that begins the series.

I hope to post a podcast episode soon detailing my findings and developments of understanding the form. I hope this is of benefit to some.

Scriptwritin’ Aaron

01/13/2017

So I’m writing a pilot script for a TV comedy show. I have no idea how to write a pilot script for a TV comedy show. I have no idea how to write a joke. Knock knock. There’s no one there. And so I fight through various ideas and situations and character biographies trying to find people who love and cheat, who are good and neurotic, who are lovable and horrible, who are dichotomous I suppose, or not. I want to make a show that does not look like a cardboard house. I want an antique mansion with modern appliances and technology centrally wired throughout. I want nice open skylights in the form of plot development points, and really high quality surfaces like exotic hardwoods and high grade marble counter tops for the art design and lighting. And I want the actors to fill out the character forms as if they were born to do those roles. I want the best of the best. I want 90% Central American dark chocolate from whatever country is the best, oh yes, United States of America, this wonderful tropical place. Let’s make a TV show boys.

Tim Ferriss is always interesting because he has done more in the outside world than me. I have been listening to his podcast again. I may have done as much internally as him as far as cerebral development and character growth, or I may not, I am not bragging, just using him as a reference point as someone who is further along in his career development than myself but of a similar measure of inventiveness, abilities, analytical qualities and achievement. I like a lot of people, I could put a huge list of mentors and inspirers, and their specific tips and tricks, and I will soon, please remind me. I want to be everyone and do everything, and that is the decision problem conundrum. But it’s not. It’s actually an excellent problem and truly not a problem at all. I want maximum human spiritual growth. I realize I can only do so many things so I attack each day with a toothy wide grin like the Cheshire Peta and I always thirst for experience, excitement and adventure. I always elicit positive outcomes with every person and situation I encounter. I manifest health, wealth, joy, and excellent vibes. Best to everyone and happy 2016. We all rock. This is a win win blog post.

Aaron in Excellence and Writing Mode

2017-01-05